i love you too.

i got feelings of being left, by mimi, and leaving, leaving u guys to that darn place. left is painful, leaving is so much more. it kills to miss ppl so much, so much that u can just cry about the silliest of stuff, like listening to aizat - hanya kau yang mampu, or simply looking at your pictures, or simply thinking that u ppl are having lunch together, and other things that we used to do together. i hated being alone. i loath living without u ppl, aftr those moments we shared. true, i have not truly cherish those moments back then, not truly appreciated u guys when we were together, but alone, i felt like my heart's been shredded to pieces, burning and struggling to stay alive. metaphoric, hiperbolic, but sure you have no idea, how true it is. i was not being myself all the time. i was forced to be a whole new person to adapt to this whole new surrounding. i cried myself to sleep most nights, yeah it heals a bit after four months or so, but i still miss you like crazy and crack up any moment, any day. hugging that pillow makes me believe, i will see them again, and the hope keeps me going. a lot of ppl adore that gift u gave me, to them its beautiful, fluffy, and pink. but it means the world to me. its sumthing i can squeeze when i'm upset, punch when i'm mad, cry on when i'm sad, and laugh with whenever i tried to be happy. its like having u ppl by my side again when i'm totally wet with tear. yess i cried a lot. yes they think i'm weird. but i dont care. i love you, and if that makes me weird, i'd always love to be the weird one. psycho, even. they say time heals what reason cannot, but i can hardly believe. i cant possibly stop missing u madly. ayeng, jan, kah, nah, nah, mimi, aimi, dah, i really do love you. (:

detik-detik itu berlalu..:( :)

sesekali bila aku ingat kembali.
wajah temanku di potret kasih.
terasa ingin ku lewati bersama.
ingin ku hirup angin kemesraan.
mengejar bayangan hilang.
namun kini detik ini.
hanya tinggal kenangan.
masa terlalu cemburu.kan ?
untuk kita terus bersama-sama.

sepsmiley.sep9.]
cinta itu terus kekal.
teguh x tergugat.bak hempasan ombak.
terbayang kasih teman.
menitis air mataku.
jernih dari seorang kawe.
ditinggalkan jauh di perantauan.

sepsmiley.sep9.
kerana detik dan jarak kita terpisah.
tapi ketahuilah.
terpisahnya kita demi.
mencari sinar gemilang.
bukan kerana memutuskan silaturrahim.

sepsmiley.sep9.
tergambar senda guraumu.
sebak rase di hati mimiey.:(
mengalir satu harapan.
ikhlas diri kamu tetap di hati.
di hujung penantian nanti.
kita bisa bertaut kembali.
dengan segenggam mutiara.
itulah. persahabatan kita.. :)

p/s : erm. time nie aku nangis. rindu sungguh ni..:( erm. jan.eliey.tkah.sanah.panah.mcdah.aimi.yeng ) syang kamo. :( mimieysedey.:)

aku dan kam00!!!!

hehe.. sajer bg gambar nie.. rindu!!!! malm last aku ek..

LagU & IramA~

.:dari 9 jadi SATU:.

kasih usah kau ragui
nilai sayangku
kepada dirimu
kuyakini hanya aku bagimu tiada dua
setia padaku
kasihilah aku

aku mencintaimu
walau ribut melanda
aku menyayangimu
biarpun jarak memisah
aku mengasihimu
hingga dunia menghilang

masihkah kau ingat
suatu ketika dahulu
saat pertemuan kita
masihkah kau ingat
suatu ketika dahulu
saat pertemuan kita
dari NINE jadi SATU..

kasih usah kau ragui
nilai sayangku
kepada dirimu
kuyakini hanya aku bagimu tiada dua
setia padaku
kasihilah aku

dari NINE jadi SATU~

kekasihs!

meh kite raye.
then kite jumpe.


rinndu u guys!

eid mubarak all!

spEciAlnya KITA*

bila...
satu~sepinya diriku
dua~itu lebih baik
tiga~gelak bersama
empat~sayangnya hangat
lima~meriahnya terasa
enam~suaraku terbenam
tujuh~nakalnya tak terkawal
lapan~apa pun kami sedia tawan
sembilan~kukuhnya PERSAHABATAN*

.: ikhlas daripada aku yang ingatkan memori lalu, 9.00p.m, 210708:.

sayangs!

i'll come back,
when u call me,
no need to say goodbye.
just bcuz evrything's changing
doesnt mean it nvr been this way bfore
all u cn do is to kno ur frens r,
as u head on to the war...



meh serang kb mall!
aku gile bangang miss u guys!
satu hari taa cukop ouh.
mimi tengs untok surat kamu,
veeery touching!

so this is gudbye..

u guys will have no idea how much i love u , our friendship , everything . the life i live taught me to learn to trust . so i trust . i trust that this bond will always be as strong as today . i trust that we love each other . i trust that we hearts each other . i trust that we're gonna miss each other . i trust that we're all being true in this bond that holds the nine of us together . i trust that we treasure every single moment we shared . i trust that , despite all the problems we face , we value each other . i am sorry to tell you , that for me , to learn to trust these things , is not that easy . i actually struggle to believe that you i mean to you guys like you mean to me . it's never that easy . i actually struggle to push aside the thought of you guys not liking me , that i am just being there just because i was eventually there , and not because i am being part of us . i am terribly sorry .

as the days pass , i am still building this trust . i know you guys have confided in me enough , the presents and all , but i guess i'm just afraid to be left alone . but one thing you must know , i love you .

saYanG SEmuA!!!!

Ini satu kisah,padi
Bukan cerita dongeng dulu kala,
Ini kisah nyata,
Tentang pertemuanku dan si dia...

FEBRUARY 2015

nycknoe_ice: BUZZ!!
black n white: wei minoh!!
nycknoe_ice: lamo x jpow mung..
nycknoe_ice: ganow loni??? X sekow idup lagii...
nycknoe_ice: mengom r.. mung ngaji mano loni???
black n white: bmn! Aku dup wak e.e. kat hampshire nyc..
black n white: mung anok brapo doh ngan mamat???
nycknoe_ice: bmn! Aku x jpow yo loni.. duk mesir key..
nycknoe_ice: aku kelik cuti ni.. ado ghumoh sebek..
nycknoe_ice: aku duk korea loni ambek engin ugop. X sekow aku...
nycknoe_ice: mung kelik bilo m’sia??
black n white: aku x kelik doh kali..
black n white: ado menate mat saleh sangkut ko ku..
black n white: mung ingat dop nate tuh hok belakon caracter harry dale ctow harry potter
mulo??? huahuahua
nycknoe_ice: baso koya tino nih...
nycknoe_ice: wei, aku denga cocoa nikoh baru ni yolo kow??? 
black n white: mano adow... yo dup cni sblh aku ni...
black n white: yo kelik skali ngan aku next year.. 
black n white: yo tunggu aku soram jah.. <33-!
nycknoe_ice: kaba angin jah kow?? Aku ingat key sengoti..
nycknoe_ice: eh!jap..jap..
nycknoe_ice: ko aku tukar nga *tuut*.. yo tune doh kow??
nycknoe_ice: Dup mano yo loni?? Mung x contact ko dio??
black n white: punoh dosh kakah tu..
black n white: yo nop jadi mechanical engineer, tuka mai nyc sbb nop ngorat
aku, mujo la aku kuat iman seyy... hua3
nycknoe_ice: astaghfirullahalazim!!! rio’ bena saem aku loni deh...
nycknoe_ice: mung tau doh ko syerah tune??? Yo ajop aku aritu...
black n white: aku tau.. yo ajop ugop tp cocoa x wi kelik.. nop xm..
black n white: yo tune nga shahar dip??? Ko nga classmate??
nycknoe_ice: ntah.. aku x de nop jupow tune yo aritu..
nycknoe_ice: gnow erk saem2 kito?? X dop denga kaba ko?? Yeng, panah,
dah, nga jan aku x tau brito.. enset aku ile n sume no x dop...
nycknoe_ice: aku jupow sanah kat billi sabtu lepah.. g shopping nga shah.. x
tune lg napok pesen sbb adik begheghek belake..
nycknoe_ice: mimi aku denga gewe ngan x-kisas.. kuat bena yo tuh...
black n white: aku serow mimi wat kelik sepsg ko dah nga panah.. kemba
kalik.. jan.. *tuut* kowt..
black n white: yeng psycho loni.. dio amek course ‘human cloning’. Yo clon
muzafar n wat mudo sket.. slamat doh kali ijab kabul sero..
nycknoe_ice: hak3! mengom sep ni especially yeng.. meme psycho sengoti..
dulu gak maso duk naim, duk ngato mokcik d’mas la, mokcik
keten la psycho tp loni dio hop psycho...
black n white: lekak badi kali...
black n white: mung pass dop xm ni??? Mu keno tende dr uia ko duk sebek
ghumoh ni???
Nycknoe_ice: bilo maso aku g uia nyoh???
Nycknoe_ice: dulu tu, meme aku bley twrn tp aku reject sbb bley g wat engin
kt korea.. loni aku cuti...
black n white: bakpo kelik ni?? x g olidey europe ko cuti2 ni???
nycknoe_ice: malah aku..pitih2 x dop.. kelik ni pon ado ore blanjo..
nycknoe_ice: ado la sekor mamat korea muko yo supow jong man kene kat ku
pah tu sanggup beli tiket g kelik.. huhu~
black n white: jong man 2, pitih pon x dop.. nop blanjo ore kelik kunun..
nycknoe_ice: gak ni buke jong man, muko ado meh jong man jah... doh ore
kene x leh nop wat gano doh...
black n white: ok lah, cocoa ajop tubik ni..
black n white: aku chow lu~ ngaju nati key kawe nih..
nycknoe_ice: kem sale r ko cocoa..
nycknoe_ice: kalu ado gapow2 psl sep ni inform r kat ku..
nycknoe_ice: x pow r, aku pon nop ronda kb.. lamo doh x kelik klate.. lgpon,
beli keto baru key..
black n black: cocoa ado skuter ni.. hua3.. syok giller..
black n white: k lah.. sambung laen kali r.. ch0w~
nycknoe_ice: chin ch0w~

black n white is now offline
nycknoe_ice is now offline


P/s: ‘Ini semua adalah rekaan semata-mata. Tidak ada kena mengena dengan yang telah hidup atau masih meninggal dunia.’

……………………………………………………………………....................

SEKIAN.

sayangsayang!

sajow boring cuti nih.
ore xd0p kijo'e.
hoho~
wanted to xpress my LOVE to evryone!
so. i luv. u!

isi ini untuk mimi.

istimewa buwat mimi yang chomell!

congratulations babe~!!

mu ni..hok ore tokleh tu la hok
mu buleh dipp~ huhu..

istikhoroh doosh~??

ape2 pun ur choice,

we r forever bestest buddies!