so this is gudbye..

u guys will have no idea how much i love u , our friendship , everything . the life i live taught me to learn to trust . so i trust . i trust that this bond will always be as strong as today . i trust that we love each other . i trust that we hearts each other . i trust that we're gonna miss each other . i trust that we're all being true in this bond that holds the nine of us together . i trust that we treasure every single moment we shared . i trust that , despite all the problems we face , we value each other . i am sorry to tell you , that for me , to learn to trust these things , is not that easy . i actually struggle to believe that you i mean to you guys like you mean to me . it's never that easy . i actually struggle to push aside the thought of you guys not liking me , that i am just being there just because i was eventually there , and not because i am being part of us . i am terribly sorry .

as the days pass , i am still building this trust . i know you guys have confided in me enough , the presents and all , but i guess i'm just afraid to be left alone . but one thing you must know , i love you .